I’m only 24 at the time of this writing, so my life story has only really just started. I created this website after years of spending time online and finally wanting one place to put my thoughts, my music, and my other digital creations. Although I’ve got another site dedicated to my music as well, you’ll still find a bit of it here.
I’m a Christian, influenced by upbringing and eventually by reason and evidence. I’m a strong proponent of teaching apologetics (that’s “reasons why we believe in Christ”). I love history, especially in Europe during the distant ancient world, the Roman era, and the fourteenth century. I’m a Computer Scientist by trade, but also a musician and composer. My dreams include pursuing music, apologetics, theology, and history to the ends of the earth, and my goals include learning about those topics with as much spare time as I can… well… spare.
I mentioned that I’m a Christian who was eventually influenced by reason and evidence. That claim is contrary to the modern notion of both of those words, or at least the modern understanding of the situation. Christianity has produced the greatest philosophers, natural scientists, artists, authors, and leaders that the world has ever seen. It advanced science beyond what had ever been seen in the history of mankind. Reading classical humanist texts, you will find a great respect for contemporary Christians. At one point, you see, there was a great mutual respect between brilliant men and women from both religions. Today, it seems we live among stereotypes and tropes.
My pursuit of apologetics and the reason for my faith began when I left High School. Entering a private Bible College, I soon learned that I had very little foundation to place my belief system on; it was in great part my friends and family who had maintained the reasons for my belief. Being faced with the reality that I had no real basis for my belief, I panicked and despaired, even amid hundreds of Christians at a Christian college. I read CS Lewis’ Mere Christianity, though it helped only temporarily. I needed more information.
It took several years before a friend of mine eventually transitioned to an atheist – a popular movement among college-age people today if you were not aware. This caused me to once again analyze my faith, this time spending long, sleepless nights staring at books beyond my understanding, texts older than anyone alive today, and arguments that blew me away. There are very few days I can remember from this period where some serious argument against Christianity was not at the forefront of my mind, and you could ask any number of people I worked with, went to school with, or spent time with if I wasn’t the most distracted person they had ever met. I had no choice, it seemed. I could not dedicate one iota of mental strength to mathematics unless it was to understand some aspect of the Christian faith. Not one small piece of my mind could help understand programming algorithms unless it involved how they might relate to the design of the universe.
In every observable way, I was a distracted wreck of a human being. In every true way, the observable was not far off. At one point, I stumbled upon a forum full of Christians who had an understanding of what they believed. It was one of the first times I’d ever come across such people. They were kind, understanding, and most importantly very knowledgeable. I watched over the months as several atheists and agnostics came with their questions. While some were simply looking for a fight, many seemed to have real concerns and want real answers. When I saw the sheer intellectual magnitude of both sides in all sorts of issues, I finally started to realize I wasn’t alone and that there were even people I disagreed with who respected my views. I eventually engaged the forum and participated a bit. The months and years of constant, sleepless research finally started making a difference in my life. GK Chesterton became my favorite author. CS Lewis coming up close behind.
As the past few years have gone by, I’ve studied even more. I’m close to deciding when and where I’d like to further my education in these matters (at this point planning on attending a university). At the same time, I’m starting apologetics groups and beginning to write my own information on the topics that interest me in that area.
So what has this all got to do with music? Well, I’m a musician, as I said. I taught myself keyboard, tin whistle, and guitar, have played trumpet for 13 years (if you take away the last 4), and I’d like to learn the hammered dulcimer and flute. I’ve composed long before I was interested in apologetics and music is still my favorite thing to work on and with.
And so that’s what this blog is about. It is a mish-mash of Christian theology, history, apologetics, music, politics, technology, programming, and random life events that I feel like sharing with the world. I hope you enjoy what’s here!